Over the past week I have been faced with some extremely unusual and even more unwanted circumstances.
It started off with a promotion at the coffee shop, which was welcomed news...I hesitantly accepted. Training is pretty straight forward, we shall see what happens as it progresses.
Later on in the week, I wound of getting a concussion. How you may ask? Something fell on my head, causing my brain already jumbled with anxiety, to be more on edge. I am feeling much better now, but still have some pain and a bump on my forehead. I am grateful that it didn't knock me out, or break my nose.
Then there was anger. I also found out, through a friend, that I had been blatantly lied by the convent. I won't go into any details here, as tactlessness is not needed. Needless to say, the anger phase--- which I thought I never reached, has peaked, perhaps even starting a new grieving process. I really can't even fathom how else to explain my feelings.
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Except maybe to say that the wounds that were being healed, have now broken back open...AND that daggers have been flying towards my heart. I can't look at a habited sister without shuttering, I can't hear the word discernment without feeling despair, I can't sit in a church or adoration by myself, and I can't trust--- this my friends, is going to be the thing i will be working on the longest. I also can't help but try to push back tears.
Please pray that this all works for the good--- as I am having an extremely hard time seeing how any of this can ever be good.
God Bless Each of You.
It started off with a promotion at the coffee shop, which was welcomed news...I hesitantly accepted. Training is pretty straight forward, we shall see what happens as it progresses.
Later on in the week, I wound of getting a concussion. How you may ask? Something fell on my head, causing my brain already jumbled with anxiety, to be more on edge. I am feeling much better now, but still have some pain and a bump on my forehead. I am grateful that it didn't knock me out, or break my nose.
Then there was anger. I also found out, through a friend, that I had been blatantly lied by the convent. I won't go into any details here, as tactlessness is not needed. Needless to say, the anger phase--- which I thought I never reached, has peaked, perhaps even starting a new grieving process. I really can't even fathom how else to explain my feelings.
Please pray that this all works for the good--- as I am having an extremely hard time seeing how any of this can ever be good.
God Bless Each of You.
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